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Update [May. 24th, 2005|12:17 am]
4gvn
[Current Mood |busybusy]

Hello to anyone who is reading,

It has been one crazy month. My Birthday was on April 19th My Son's was on May 5th. And Mother's Day came and went right past me I tell you. I started a new job in which is completely new to me. So between Birthdays, Mother's Day, Church, Work, and Baseball I don't get hardly a minute to myself. There's only 4 games left in the season so soon no more baseball until next season. We are in 1st place right now and I think we just might win championship. My Birthday this year was pretty nice. Nothing big but I did have a good one this year. I got dinner and an outfit (which I would not have picked) against my own style judgment that ended up looking really good on me. I have received many complements for it. I have to hand it to my Bro. (He got it for me) My Son scored though over 25 people showed up to His B-Day dinner which was supposed to be a small quiet gathering which turned out to be a big bash. He went home with a Best Buy gift Certificate, a Choppers Die Cast Toy Bike ( which makes noise and the lights go on) and a $125.00 cash. Not too bad for a new 11 year old. I thank the Lord for holding back the rain long enough for people to show up. After everyone got there it started pouring down hard. The Lord is good!

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(no subject) [Apr. 10th, 2005|11:22 pm]
4gvn
[Current Mood |hopefulhopeful]

Nine Days till my Birthday. I really don't want it to come but I have a feeling this year will be a good one. The last 3 were terrible. Well, last year was ok but not satisfying. I guess anytime you are alone on your bed crying on your Birthday is pretty bad which is how the last 3 birthdays eneded for me. But, this year I realize that the older you get the less anyone cares about you or your birthday I think that's because the older I get the more busy I am. Or it could be the fact that now I don't go out and party since I came to the Lord so there are not that many people to throw you a party. So I figured I  will be happy no matter what happens this year.I So I was thinking what I can be happy about even for the last 3 birthdays that were sad. Here is what I came up with: Last year was ok becasue at least I did go camping with my Aunt which was not what I expected but She put such an effort she even made me a cake when we came home and I was really blessed. It was sort of the thought that counted more than the actual trip I was just really sad because none of my family not even my Mom called or came by just like the two years before last. The last two years I am Happy for the Lord providing me with Birthday cake and gifts from work if my job would not have done it I wouldn't have had anything for those years. And they went all out with the entire office did a pot luck and really nice gifts. So this year we'll see what happens.
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And Time Passes [Apr. 10th, 2005|10:28 pm]
4gvn

As the seconds tic away every minute of the day I wonder and think as time passes.

Minute by minute I look and I seek trying to sort out the day as time passes.

The hour rolls around when the day is running out as time passes.

Each and everyday so quickly fades as time passes.

A whole week full of so much to do as time passes.

Another month goes so fast as time passes.

Each year gone by filled with memories of life to be remembered as time passes.

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Update [Mar. 23rd, 2005|11:31 pm]
4gvn
[Current Mood |cheerfulProud Mom]

I am so proud of my Son. He is doing AWESOME in school. He got the Honor Roll Twice this year and He scored an impressive 96% on His G.A.T.E. test. He started baseball last month and made it on the Dodgers not too bad. Although, J loves the Yankees. Maybe next year. Opening ceremony got rained out Friday night and so did Saturdays game so today finally was our First game. It was soooo fun. The kids did great. They tied 12 to 12. Not bad.

            Go Dodgers #27

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Healing Waters [Mar. 23rd, 2005|10:55 pm]
4gvn

As the rain pours down
Flooding this place
Washing away
Forgiving my sin
Leading me into
Everlasting

Pour down on me
Drops of living waters
Let your glory shine
I'll leave the world behind


While the thunder crashes
And the lighting flashes
Walls come down and
The pain flows out
Leading me into
Everlasting

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(no subject) [Jan. 8th, 2005|02:38 am]
4gvn

ALIAS is the Best.

<a href="http://abc.go.com/primetime/alias/">

Girl Power!!

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(no subject) [Jan. 8th, 2005|02:09 am]
4gvn
[Current Mood |peacefulpeaceful]

Today ended a full week at a new job. I really like it so far and hope that I will be here for a while. It has the most beautiful view I get to see the snow on the Mountains when it rains and the Sunset everyday. There is such a peace in the breathtaking view out of the huge second story window I get to gaze out of. It makes work nice. Now I just need to get my car tags and insurance and I will be once again a free woman. Not having you own car running is Sooooooooooo SAAAAAD.
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(no subject) [Jan. 8th, 2005|01:09 am]
4gvn

Can You believe that Brad & Jen separated?

I am soo sad they are such a cute couple. I hope they get back together.

<a href="http://et.tv.yahoo.com/celebrities/2005/01/08/bradandjenbreakup/">

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New Year 2005 [Jan. 6th, 2005|10:29 pm]
4gvn
[Current Mood |thankfulthankful]
[Current Music |Third Day - Hallelujah]

How time goes by so quickly not really leaving much for me to reflect upon.  I am thankful for a fresh start and I pray my hardships from last year which moved me to new surroundings this year will allow me to find the path to which I have been searching for.

 

          Happy New Year.


May this year bring the best to everyone I love and care for.
Joy Peace Love Happiness and Salvation.

You can be 4gvn 2

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(no subject) [Dec. 28th, 2004|10:54 pm]
4gvn
[Current Mood |distresseddistressed]

Hello to whoever might be reading,

It's has been so long since my last entry and I guess that is a good thing since I feel most compelled to write in my times of distress. I have been on the boat in the midst of a storm and find myself in fear and distress. I know the Lord is there to calm the storm and perhaps give me a chance to walk on water. Yet, I curl up and hide away under a plank gripping at what my hands can reach to brace myself crying out for help in my time of need. There are moments when I know the Lord is there but, lately they do not last for long. I wonder how long it was before Peter actually got up and stepped out of the boat. I know so many focus on the fact that he took his eyes off Jesus and sank which I too have pondered still, my question now is where did he find the courage and strength to let go and let God. I know many many times I have been told to pick and choose my battles or all I have to do is let it go, give it to God.( Easier said than done I say) Yet,  when I ask how did you do it, how is it you made it through your difficult times? Many responses I get back are so vague like read the Bible and Pray.  Trust God. Still, I wonder what to read or what to pray and how to Trust God when it seems that I am not. Of course I read my Bible and Pray I try to trust God I go to church every servcie not just on Sundays and repent I pray Lord I give you everything that I am take all that is not of you and change me to be what you want me to be. So I ask what else can I do or pray or read? I often feel that it just doesn't work for me. Still I know that the Lord has touched me in a way that I can't go back to what I used to be but I don't know how to be who he made me to be. I feel so lost and tossed between striveing for whats right and running from my mistakes. I long for the Peace that the Word promises the Peace that surpasses all understanding.

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